Day 11 - Reflection

Today we learned about the body paragraph writing process. We better understand the differences between commentary and textual evidence. I feel like my paragraphs are stiff and a bit blocky, and I don't quite know when to incorporate my theme, but I know we will learn. I received a 4 on my English Language and Composition AP exam, and I desire to receive the same score or better on this next exam. I don't know if it would be wise to skip more than one college class. I do want to pass my AP Calculus exam, but it's really difficult to see it happening because I don't understand it anymore. I used to, but now I don't see myself succeeding in Calculus

Fonso's Diary P.O.V.

Dear God,

I could never quite understand myself. Sometimes I'd find myself doing one thing, then I'd do another and wonder what happened. It makes me angry. Angrier than I already am.

I wish I could feel sorry for what I've done. But I don't regret anything anymore. After my world got a lot darker, my time is spent digging holes in the ground in the trees.

They don't tell nobody but God.

Day 10 - Weekend

I finally overcame my writer's block this weekend. I had an issue with the book I was writing and was so unsatisfied with it that I have up on it for a little while. After a new app update that I initially didn't like, I suddenly had a strong urge to continue writing, to fix my book. Upon research, that's exactly what the app company wanted, to instill the urge to accomplish things. Like how my desire to travel to Lake Worth, Florida is backed up by my loving mother! This weekend was very nice :)

Day 9 - The Color Purple

With Celie on her road to self discovery, she becomes more and more of her own person. She helps with the development of Mary Agnes, becomes intimate with Shug, and plans for the release of Sofia, who works as a maid and rarely sees her children.

My self discovery will come with age, I think. There are many things I look forward to in the future, and I assume that once I am finally satisfied with what I have and with what I can do, I'll know who I am.

Day 8 - The Color Purple

Celie told Shug of her past and her pain while alone together one night. She has been able to explore herself and her relationship with Shug more than before. Initially, her affections were more hidden, but after Shug showed her reciprocation and more, they became further bonded. It gets more and more difficult to see their relationship as anything other than romantic-wise instead of anything else. I find myself eager to see what becomes of them.

I felt more like a leader today. True, I don't have many of those to lead, but those who feel true passion with what they do are the ones who I can rely on. As a person looking towards the future, I plan to treat ever scenario as if there isn't an ending, but that everything is a beginning.

Day 7 - The Color Purple

I wonder what makes people realize the err of their ways. Is it contemplation of their actions? Having to be told of what they are doing? Or is it seeing the change in the people they are affecting? Seeing the looks on their faces go from light and peaceful to dark and shut off to protect themselves from the blows of insults?

It must be their own selfishness that blinds them. As visible as pain can be and how strong the pang of regret is, what exactly stops a person from noticing what they are doing? What makes it difficult to be observant?

Day 6 - The Color Purple

I wonder what it's like to live comfortably. In which all there is to worry about is what I'll do for fun tomorrow. Is it even possible to be in that blissful state? Where, even if you aren't thinking about the things that stress you out, you're stressed? The constant bags under your eyes and never-ending worry over your future and survival. Wishing you could go to sleep and wake up feeling refreshed for the first time in your life. I can't help but be patient though. I have a life ahead of me - maybe I'll one day reach that state, for that's my goal. To one day wake up and feel truly comfortable.